Live This Way

Written for English 205: Poetry Writing

By Dominic Jones

I cannot go on living in this repetition

But I do not know how to change my behaviors

The evolution of a person

Making progress in his life

Problem pebbles build up to form a mountain

Which cannot easily be undone

And sometimes I deny that I am unhappy

Sometimes I wear a happy face even when I am dying inside

When the problems tower over me

It’s hard not to be overwhelmed

I know that I am not living up to my full potential

But I have not yet figured out how to do just that

It will be my downfall

Grinding me into the ground

Always thinking about how the future could be different

If I had done something other than what

I did in the past

But I know that my past does not determine my future

And it is interesting to me that I feel more than ever

That everything turned out just like this for some ultimate purpose

I know I have to keep going and never look back

Plotting my own course each new day

Nothing but this thing I cannot see called faith

Holding me up and supporting me

From falling into the old ruts

That constantly beckon for me to come back

Every decision affects everything else, like a spider’s web

And now I know for certain

As confused as I am feeling

I am exactly where I need to be