Inspiration for this poem comes from the song "Fallout" by Imperative Reaction, which I found on Spotify.

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Dominic Jones performing spoken word poetry recordings that will eventually be put to a piano and a drum beat, and a synthesizer, using Fruityloops. This is one of my favorite tracks because I always have something on my mind.

<About The Writer> (and Editor-in-Chief, Webmaster, Publisher, Artist, Creator and Promoter) Dominic Jones has been writing since 1998. He has written mostly poetry but has dabbled in short stories and has also been utilizing a journal through most of his teenage years and into his adult life. He got published in the literary magazines for their respective schools in 9 th and 11 th grade. He also got published in the early 2000s in Hedra News, an alternative medicine magazi

By Dominic Jones The things I said before Processing them through my head For awhile there We were hanging on by a thread It gives me reason to believe There is room to achieve And in us I should have believed Perhaps in a different time And a different place We could piece together what we had when we left off And start anew Months with you were only just a few

By Dominic Jones Woke up around noon today No dreams that I can recall Maybe just for today I won’t drop the ball On everything I should be working on Drink a little coffee and light a cigarette Take this box and fill it with regrets Give them to big guy in the sky Who’s watching over me Reminding myself how lucky I am to be free Lucky to have people who care and share People who want me to do good Go back to college like I know I should Even without those influences What sta

By Dominic Jones If I read, I’ll journal If I journal, maybe write poetry Force myself to get something onto paper Chain reaction Perhaps Finally Okay with myself And can share my life with someone else (Ch)anger over the things that frustrate me Crank the volume / set the pace Step back But in your face Ready for a new beginning Of this journey to fate Looking inward Reality is something that Isn’t all that bad Don’t have to escape from all the time Write down a dream But I

By Dominic Jones Try my hand at something new And have a new point of view Flowers pushing up Out of the earth Forging forward Always With ever-renewing resolve And then I know I can evolve Masquerading as a secure connection Pop the firewall Don’t want to be pushed aside I know in you I can confide What’s on my mind Or bothering me Denial makes it harder For the stars to shine My mind may be numb But it’s not benign

By Dominic Jones I continue my demise As a writer Soft spoken sometimes But otherwise to the point When I begin To look inward And find the instability Volatile and fragile But yearning for interaction My soul burns for you To step outside the box And find my inner worth

By Dominic Jones Maternal instinct I no longer stink Thoughts quieted down I got so much stuff done today Vibrant social media involvement I miss my feline Don’t go over the yellow line I have established boundaries Feel like I have found my niche In the world

By Dominic Jones I really just don’t like reality Give me some chemicals to feel something different I feel helpless And my life isn’t going anywhere Be my friend and I can progress Addicted to a certain kind of sadness My cat makes it better I still get up everyday and plug away I’m a rebel just for one Get my kicks since 1981 Numb it down to the minimum senses

By Dominic Jones Woke up sober today Blessed to be alive Dark feelings go away Swarming around the beehive Woke up and took a breath It’s okay if we don’t jive Not here to impress everyone Several brushes with death Just know that I’m not done Woke up alive today Stable, sober and employed Always room for growth

By Dominic Jones I see the sun reflecting in your eyes Like a thousand prisms Throwing light in all different directions I tell you how I never wanted it to be like this I wanted to take care of you And provide some stability I kiss the salt away in your tears on your cheek And tell you how I never meant to make you feel unwanted I never meant to be insensitive The only thing I can guarantee is change And if I could hold onto those moments I had with you And relive them again

By Dominic Jones Some say it’s a gift Maybe others, a curse I just take it for what it is Pour all my heart and emotion Into every verse But something compels me now To write something new each day Because every time I do I have something new to say Embrace my flaws And my attributes Know that those that despise I don’t have to dispute It doesn’t matter what they think Doesn’t poison me anymore Over the ideas that make me sink Core irrational beliefs being worked on A little

Written for English 205: Poetry Writing, which I got a B+ in!

This is about being sober from all chemicals, legal or illegal, for a total of 4.5 years, during which time I got a 3.1 GPA at Boise State University. I know I must stay sober for myself, and not a girlfriend, or a judge, or my parents. It must be for myself, or it will not work out.

By Dominic Jones

By Dominic Jones Let go and let God Plugging away everyday sober-from-the-ganja Namaste Whooshah Breathe in Breathe out Smile And take in the world